February 6, 2009

I'm Gonna Go Ahead and Pout

Ok, today I had a job interview for an Administrative Assistant. Its about 25 minutes from my house and it seemed like a real nice place to work. I went in today as confident as could be (but not annoying) ya know just believing I had what it took to impress the interviewers. Two hours later, slap in the face. Its not that I don't enjoy being humbled, its more like, "Dang! Am I that bad?" I keep telling myself the Lord has other plans for me and its nothing to be bummed about. I guess what I was so excited for was that it was a Mon-Fri job 7-4. Weekends off! Great pay. Damn. I keep wanting to cry and I'll start to so that stress can be relieved but at the same time I can't. I just can't do it. I don't know whether its because I'm so frustrated with job searching and wanting to know how the future will pan out (at least just a little bit and whether or not we'll actually be able to afford our bills on the "above average" cleaning wage that I'm making.) Who knows. I know our situation could be so much worse and its not like I'm complaining about our situation. I'm just having a problem with my self confidence that's getting flushed down the toilet (probably a toilet I'm cleaning). I'm worried I won't be able to find a job once I start showing because lets be honest, who in their right mind is going to hire a pregnant woman who will leave for at least six weeks at some point in time. Not anyone I know of. I even went to JoAnn's tonight to cheer up and buy some material for the quilt but I had forgotten that I lost my debit card the other day. (I found it right after I called and cancelled.) So there I felt like more of an idiot and wasn't too enthused on my way home...and even the radio annoyed me! Oh and did I mention, I heard my bad luck song today. Go figure. A day like today isn't on my favorites list.

Go ahead and boost me back up even if ya gotta lie.

(I think my emotional break down will begin when Cody gets home. Lucky guy always sees me at my best.)

8 comments:

Eldredge Family said...

Danica I am so sorry you are going through such a hard time right now. I know things will work out for you and Cody. I lose my ATM card ALL the time. I love the design for your quilt I hope you make it! I also hope it is red and pink!

Liz said...

Hang in there Danica! You are right Heavenly Father has a plan and I know it's hard to hear that some times, for me any way, because a person gets tired of trials and needs a break along the way and your break will come. Just have faith that the job wasn't the one for you. You are young, beautiful, intelligent and good things will come your way! But I am sorry about the job and will keep you and Cody in our prayers.

Colbi and Jeff said...

Oh Dan, I'm sorry. Life really does sucks sometimes. I've been in your same shoes, trust me. But, I can say that it really does all work out, somehow. And you will look back and be like, that wasn't so bad! The Big Man knows what he is doing with you - don't you worry. I love you!

Tamra and Jim said...

Danica, the right job will come along. Heavenly Father knows what you need better than you do right now. Don't get discouraged. You're awesome and someone will be lucky to have you work for them. love you lots!

Nikolaus7 said...

Danica girlfriend its Brooklyne :o) you crack me up and I love you. Come visit me, I wrecked my car and have a pay a bazillion dollars for it and it was supposed to be done 3 weeks ago.....we can cry about our bad luck together haha like old times! Be happy though I love and miss you :o)
♡ - Brooklyne

Jewels by Jacque said...

Hello Danica its Jacque Henry, remember me? I am starting a blog for my jewelry and I just wanted to invite you to see it! E-mail me your address so I can add you, thanks Danica!

Lamar Echols said...

No worries Danica. These are tought times. It's not you, just timing. Hang in there. It'll get better. Isn't it great to have a husband you can take it out on!!

.taralee. said...

Hey there miss. Sorry about the no-job luck. That really does suck. And I agree with everyone else...your time will come. Just make it through. It will be ok. Hate to say it but maybe Student loans will help out...you gotta do what you gotta do. Taking loans out can be stressful- but until Cody graduates and starts making money with his career it might be the best thing. They have low interest and can be very beneficial. Trace hates the thought of loans- but when in need. The prophet said that there are a few things to go in debt for. 1. A house. 2. An education and maybe 3. A car.
Just a thought. I don't want you to stress cause stress isn't healthy for the baby.
Oh and have you started taking Folic Acid yet. YOU NEED TO ASAP. It prevents spinal cord problems. So go get some TODAY!!!!
As for the quilt- it's pretty amazing. You are so talented. I wouldn't even know how to draw that...let alone quilt it! :)