March 17, 2011

A Year Ago....

Wow how things change. This picture of Cody and I was taken when on our trip to Vegas. We had had a long couped up winter with a whirl wind of health problems and left Cole with my mom and dad. Maybe this is when my "heavy girl hunch" started? hahaha. And then look at Cole. I NEVER thought he was a chubby baby but HOLY CHUB! I love it! I love that sweet boy and that he still lets me snuggle him and kiss him all over.

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February 2011

January 2011

he loves the mixer! he gets so excited when i make something because he knows he gets to eat the dough! these cookies were probably made with the intention of being taken to someone but i doubt they even made it to a plate. we love cookies around here!

March 8, 2011

My Brothers

I am just sitting by myself tonight and for some reason my brothers, Ryan and Rustin, entered my mind. What amazing people they both are. If you know them, you know they are night and day in almost every way except they are both so kind and generous. They are special people to me and I would do anything for them. I have learned so much from both of them and I pray for them and the hard things they face. It amazes me how our Heavenly Father knows who will fit perfectly together as a family and what we can all learn from each other. What awesome men! Thank you for always being there for me! I love you both!

March 7, 2011

A Wonderful Life

Things lately haven't been the easiest but they certainly haven't been the hardest either. I have moments where I feel extremely close to the spirit (could be mistaken for hormones) but either way I am thankful for the life I have. This pregnancy has been no piece of cake. I know a lot of people who have it a lot worse off than me, but for me, its been hard. I think the second trimester is kicking in though so that feels great. I've actually gone 5 days without puking and that is a record! I don't know what it is about carrying a child and having one already here but I am reminded daily of the blessings of motherhood and eternal family. I can't really explain how I feel at this moment of what my heart feels. The closest word that comes to describing it is JOY but it is even more than that. I'll admit that my mind gets off track of my role as a wife and mother and just as a daughter of God but I try during those moments to remember the sweet things that take place in my life every day.

Cody is an amazing husband and father. He works everyday whether he's sick or tired, he still goes. He cooks dinner the majority of the time. And still tells me I'm pretty even on those bad days.

Cole has a way to remind us of how we are supposed to be living. That little boy is a package sent straight from heaven. He doesn't talk much, but he sure understands everything...which does not mean he always does what he is told. He loves to be chased around the house, thrown on the couch, tickled, take baths, play ding dong with people's belly buttons, pick his toys up, suck on his bear, climb, throw anything, bury himself in pillows, clap when he does something good, snuggle, wipe tears, loves dogs, read, sing, eating whatever fits into his mouth (even nasty nasty nasty stuff), and always folds his arms when we sit down for dinner. He is the sweetest thing.

I don't know this new baby yet. In fact, I don't know whether its a boy or girl (gut says girl) but I do know that he or she will be loved by many and that Cody and I will do our best with the new addition. Every once in a while I feel it kicking...more like a nudge...but what a wonderful feeling. It makes my heart so happy knowing our family is growing but scared to death in the same breath.

I can't help but wonder how my recovery will go. I probably think about it TOO much but I do not want to be so depressed that I can't enjoy my life and my children. I will forever be grateful that Cole will never know he was taken away from me when he was three months old because I wasn't normal. I think thats why I'm so scared this time. Cole will almost be two when the baby is born and he'll know if I'm gone. The bond between mother and son is so strong. I hope I'm able to stay strong (and stable) and that things will go much smoother. I have faith that everything will work out but that does not mean everything will be worked out on my time frame. ha.

I have a wonderful life, even when its hard.