No Longer MIA

Wow how time has gotten away from me. I still can not believe it is Christmas time. Cole is growing everyday. I was in the hospital for about a week and away from Cole the whole time because children aren't allowed in the hospital if they're not sick. Boo. When I saw him, I barely recognized him. Mom and Dad definitely gave him enough to eat. He even had cottage cheese legs but now he is used to nursing again.

I'm especially thankful for family right now and all the service they provided while I was checked out. I never had to worry whether or not Cole was being taken care of. Cody and my parents did a fabulous job and also our friends Corri and Nathan Coons. Its good to be home and trying to get back in the swing of things.

my thoughts

I've had a couple realizations these past couple days. Some good. Some sad. Like for instance, I am a mother. For forever. That will never change. This little boy depends completely on Cody and I for everything. My job isn't a "ok boss I've worked 40 hours. Where's my paycheck? I'm going to enjoy the weekend." Its around the clock job that I love but is definitely challenging. A sad thing I realized was I can no longer buy junior clothing. Which stinks because it is so much cheaper. I went clothes shopping this weekend with my mom and just started crying. I never realized how much a body changes after having a baby. Oh well.

My heart has been aching lately for my cousin Crystal. She lost her baby boy in March. I was 2 months pregnant at the funeral and I thought I knew how she might possibly feel but once Cole was born my life changed and I can never imagine my life without him. I can't imagine how tough losing a child would be and I am so sorry for her aches. What an awful thing to experience and I want her to know she is in my prayers. She is an amazing mother and person. She is a huge example to me about just loving every minute of being a mother even when it gets tough. Thank you Crystal.

I couldn't have asked for a better baby. He is so patient with me and smiles whenever I talk to him or enter the room. Tonight I asked Cody, "do you think he loves me?" Cody said, "there is no doubt in my mind. You and him have the most special bond."

I hope one day my hormones go back to normal so I can go through a day without crying but even through the tears I love Cole. I'm usually crying because I love him so much and its the only way I know how to express it.

...that's my dad

My parents came down this weekend to do a "little" Christmas shopping. (Bout walked me to death) but it was fun. As with any time my dad is driving, there are several u turns and grumbles under everyone's (mom) breath, we eventually made it to all of our destinations...plus some. My dad got to thinking and broke the silence by saying, "All three of my shows are on at the same time tonight."
"Oh yeah? What shows?"
"Well, the Cardinals game, NFR, and Desperate Housewives."

It took a while for anyone to respond. Then Cody said, "Your a man's man!" It was hilarious! I guess it was just unexpected for such a man to say Desperate Housewives!

He didn't want me to blog it but I couldn't resist.

Cole's 2 Month Check Up

So maybe I should rename this blog to "Cole's Blog".

At his two month check up he:

Weighed 10 lbs 4 oz ... 28th Percentile

Head 39 cm... 24th Percentile

Height 24 1/4"...91st Percentile

Long and Lean and as cute as can be.

At two months:

smiling like crazy...but not for a camera

follows voices and objects

knows I'm the milk wagon

finds his thumb and naws on it

doesn't really cry...more or less yells

talks the most when I sing to him...melts my heart

snuggles on my chest

sleeps like a champ

pees in his bath water

very patient

knows if I give him his pacifier it must be time to sleep and he'll fight it

can cause anyone to evacuate a room

hates tummy time still but I swear he'll roll over soon

is fascinated by the Christmas tree

loves it when Cody comes home (yay...no more boring mom)

starting to grasp onto things more but mainly just punches still

if he is put on the carpet he gets a little rash on his face (I think that just mainly reflects my housekeeping though)

gets confused as a girl because of all his hair

Cole's Special Day

We were able to bless Cole on Thanksgiving Day and it was so sweet. Of course, I was totally emotional but it was just a neat experience and it still hits me hard sometimes that he is our son. Cody did an amazing job. Cole was happy as a clam and finally got to meet his Aunt Taralee and smiled right away. (he hears a lot about her) I'm so thankful Cody is his dad and could do that for him! What a blessing!

This is for Shannon

Shannon thats about as good as it gets. If you need different ones let me know.

For Those Interested...

Basically this is for Nanna. He usually is so much louder but when the camera is on he gets shy. Little stinker. We just got a "Flip" camera. I love it.

What We're Doing

I guess it is possible to look like a cow in all pictures!

My two Boys.


He fussed until I stripped him down. Loves to be naked.


Fat and Happy after eating

Chillin up in Show Low while we raked leaves. He loves to be outside. Lookin good mom.

Lookin like his daddy

Well Cole seems to get bigger every day. I attempted letting him fall asleep on his own today. He cried for an hour straight and so did I so I then I told myself, "why put all this pressure on myself when I could just enjoy him?" So thats what I'm doing. Oh well if he doesn't fall asleep on his own yet and wants me to hold him instead. In a little bit he won't want me to so I'm just taking it all in. I love him so much.

My Lil' Human

I usually call him little human now because he doesn't look like a baby...just a miniature human. He sleeps through the night! How awesome is that!? Up at Show Low was the first time and I have been in heaven ever since.

He is starting to smile and talk a lot and is ticklish up his back on his little toes.

Every day I'm thankful for my little boy. I laugh with him and cry with him and hug and squeeze him every chance I get.

The other day when I was bathing him, the little tub has a place to put his shampoo. Well he peed and it went right into the little hole. That's my boy! He missed the clean dishes so I was pretty proud!

A Mother's Regret

Darn you dr pepper! I drank you today so i could stay awake while driving home and now my baby won't sleep so i need another one to stay up with him....scratch that idea.

A Mother and Daughter's Weekend Fun

It's amazing how much me and my mom are alike. Its almost scary...ALMOST.

Like how she can eat a whole thing of double stuff Oreos before I even get a chance to think about having one but I can eat a whole box of Nilla Wafers before she even knew she bought them.

Or how I ate practically a whole pan of pumpkin squares my dad made and blamed it on my mom and he really honestly didn't know who to believe. I guess we both lie a lot...?

Or like when we're both upset we clean really fast and slam things and make as much noise as possible...almost to the point of making it awkward for anyone around...but we feel so much better when we're done.

Or how we can both inhale two Cafe Rio burros no problem.

We both hate sharing Dr. Pepper.

This morning I was wearing my pinkish shower cap and I walked into my mom's bathroom and said, "Look. I look like a cancer patient." For some reason she looked at my chest and I just pointed at my head and said, "Up here." We both about died laughing.

I had to "fix" some of the faces she painted on our navities and I was telling her I can't draw and she said, "I really can't draw. About the only thing I can draw is flies." It took me a while to get it. She was basically admitting that she smells. :D

My dad asked me why painting the faces on the nativity was taking so long and I told him they were screwed up royally. No offense mom. Now Joseph and Mary sure are happy they had baby Jesus. They're smiling ear to ear.

Last time I was here I had an ingrown finger nail on my middle finger. This week I have another one but on the other hand and also the middle finger. And last night I smashed my pinky so I was showing my mom from across the room my battle wound and she said, (with her middle finger up), "yeah my finger hurts too." Then I stuck up both my middle fingers and said, "yeah I have ingrown nails on both fingers." We laughed so hard.

She was giving my dad commands one after another and before we could get the first thing she asked done. I was out in the garage with my dad and said, "doesn't she have a mute button." Dad didn't even hesitate and said, "NO!" I came back inside and she had heard us. Hilarious.

I told her we really should just set up a video tape and record everything we do but she thinks we'll be the only ones that find humor in it. Either way, it would be awesome to go back and watch one day, but I decided to get this all written down before I forget. I love my mom and am so glad I'm like her. She's awesome and so much fun.

Professional Portraits

This is our little man!

What Schedule?

This week has been amazing. Actually the past 5 weeks have been but this week Cole and I were figuring out the schedule...or so I thought. Ya know...take cat naps all day and sleep all night. But tonight the little stinker...who made himself totally sick from eating too much is wide awake. He usually sleeps from 10 to 5 and then 6 to 9ish. *I'm not complaining though because I've learned to just enjoy him and let him play when he's like this and to sing Primary songs to him out of my handy little book I bought when I was in primary and found in an old box at my mom's house last visit! Thank heavens for that blessed storage room! Tomorrow we're finally getting his pictures done...ya know since now he's practically walking and talking. Better late than never. But then I think about it and he never really did the new baby snuggling. He came out ready to stretch out and has ever since. We'll have to video him when we take him out of his car seat. Absolutely adorable.

*=I drank a Dr.Pepper today (mouth was at Disneyland for a brief moment) so staying up tonight isn't really his fault.

Halloween 2009

At work, (Cabela's for those of you who do not know) we had a store pumpkin carving contest. Each department was asked to carve a pumpkin. Me and another outfitter named Mary was choosen to tackle our departments pumkin. The decision to choose Mary and I may have been made due to the fact that we were the only two in the department but I like to think it was because we were the most qualified. After laboring for a full 15 minutes or so, we crafted this very scary deer. We won first place!

We went to our friends party later on in the night. We had to wait for Cole to eat and fall asleep. I was nervous about leaving him home alone but Danica said it would be ok. I went as Walter, a very cool old man.

Danica went as Gladys. Doesn't she look.............way to go Gladys, lookin good! Oh, I'm just joking about Cole by the way, we took him with us!

Gladys and Cole, He sure loves his mommy!

Cole loves to strech and have his hands up when he sleeps.

I love when Cole falls asleep on me like this, however it does not happen very often.
Danica recently spent some time up in Show Low and decided to drastically cut her hair. She called me afterwards...emphasis on the afterwards and sent me this picture. She looks so beautiful that I had to post it. She's a hottie!

Still Hard to Believe He's Mine

These are for Tara because she hasn't seen her first nephew yet and I know she's itching to.

This is how we found him sleeping the other day.
What I wake up to
He's getting used to the camera

Finding his smile and voice

This keeps me going

Absolutely precious

Didn't get sprayed this time

He's thinking, "that was an amazing bath...now if mom would take one."

He hates being on his stomach. Those legs are the reason he can roll.

No more mom!

Thank you so much for all the prayers and fasting that was for Cole! We are so thankful for the test results and that he is our healthy little boy. He does not have Cystic Fibrosis but he is a carrier so Cody and I will have to get tested to make sure our next kiddos won't have it and we won't have a repeat of this stress. He has changed our lives in such an uplifting way. We love him so much and can't get enough of him!

Starting to coo and talk to us.

Definitely found his tongue and sticks it out and licks his lips when he's hungry.

Loves to suck on whatever he can get his mouth on.

Falls asleep to music so easily. Thank you Stephanie for the primary cd and thank you internet for playlists!

Loves to be held but does have a breaking point where he just wants to lay down and stretch and play.