my heart is full

Today Cody is at work and I have been laying on the couch listening to conference. There were so many events that took place since last Sunday that have prepared me to listen today. It was one of those "AH-HAH" moments today while listening to President Henry B. Eyring's talk that made me realize that the Lord knew exactly how I felt and what I was feeling and that He doesn't just calm you down in a moment of despair (or several weeks of despair). But that He answers prayers when He knows we're ready to hear it. What made me get down on my knees last Sunday? What made me actually want to turn on conference and listen to almost every word? All I can say is that I'm happy I finally decided to listen to the promptings I was having and that I was able to turn to prayer. Then today as I listen to conference, I am thankful that my prayers are still being answered and what a sweet reminder it is to listen to the Prophet and Apostles bear testimony of prayer. I know the Lord prepared me to listen to conference today by the experience I had last week and that it wasn't just a coincidence.


Also my heart is full today for the love I have for my family. What amazing people I have been blessed with. First I have my parents who have always raised me in a righteous manner. I mean sure we aren't a perfect family but I never doubted that my parents hearts weren't in the right place. We've always supported, loved, teased, and helped one another. I don't think anyone of us has ever gone without because someone was always there to help the other. I have learned more from my family since I got married then I knew my other 20 years of life. I guess as a kid you don't really pay attention to the details of how hard a marriage is, money, or that everything is not a fairy tale and even prince charming has habits you do not like but I'm thankful that my family is together forever. The saying is so true. "We may not have it all together, but together we have it all." I agree full heartedly.

Cody- I feel closer to him now more than ever and thats the best feeling. We're getting through our trials together and making sure there's enough time for us. I love him and appreciate his hard work and his concern for me. He is a little pill at times but I appreciate the effort he has been giving in everything.

Dad- quite stubborn, but always there for advice and counsel, spoils all his kids and wife, worthy Priesthood holder, honest and the best Gospel Doctrine teacher I've ever had...and school teaacher for that matter Mom- tender hearted, believer, nevers puts herself first, always made sure us kids had what we needed, encouraging, and the best laugh one will ever hear, I always had the best braids in school, talented and will never get old. She'll always be young at heart.

Ryan- hard headed, yet hardest worker I've ever known, he's there for you on a moments notice (and it only takes him about 1.5 hours to drive from Show Low to Thatcher), can fix anything and everything and gets it done right the first time, a real gentleman, knows every country song out there


Rustin- go-getter (in life and when it comes to doing projects around the house haha), also-the favorite. he's so caring, honest, intelligent, and hilarious. He dances better than anyone I've ever met and can turn any awkwardness into the funniest moment of your life, knows how to work hard and when to have fun

Taralee- wittiest, prettiest sister ever. She can turn anyone's crappy day into the best, leaves long voicemails and says "and stuff" way too much but it makes me laugh, awesome mother and wife, faithful and true, the best sister I could've ever had
Trace- wisecrack but also very genuine, hard worker, loves Tara & Brody and supports them so well, very competitive...but if he wasn't Tara would have him whooped! haha


Brody- well he's just perfect the way he is. I cried the day he was born and was so excited when i got to see him for the first time. I think that is when I truly decided that I wanted to be a mom.

Today during President Eyring's talk about prayer and how he stayed with a family and was invited to say family prayer at night and the little boy was saying it, I thought of the Rapier Family. I imagined, Logan and Braden as if they were saying that prayer and mentioning everyone in their family. Before I knew it, tears were rolling down my face. I love those two boys and their sisters, Abby and Kate more than I can explain. At the mall I always see young families and just always think of the Rapiers and wonder what they're doing. I miss holding Kate and seeing her smile, Little Logan and his cute laugh and that he could make anyone feel like a million bucks, Braden and that he can seriously sing any song and do somersaults the entire time. I heard "I Love Rock and Roll" and "Joy Ride" the other day and found myself smiling. And I miss Abby and her cute sense of humor and that when I'm around I feel like I'm constantly being watched. That girl is so smart and knows it! The Rapiers will never really know what all they taught Cody and I when we lived in Thatcher. I miss living 5 minutes away and that if we want to watch The Office or Lost, sit and talk or get slaughtered in a game, we could go to the Rapiers and they would generally have some sort of cookies or cake or something.